i think i need to stop being such a whiny bitch … it is only making things worse … strength, dear, strength … being informed/self-aware will be the only way out of this …
school started again and i remember why i am here, thank you my fellow artists/friends, without you i would be lost, the ugly duckling so to speak [emily this is for you baby, look it up in that book we’re both reading]…
and i need to stop suppressing all this, it’s turning me into someone i don’t even know … and IT IS ALL MY SUBCONSCIOUS DOING …
no more emo annika.
are you learning to trust in your womanly instincts as i am?
more like run against the tide of willful revenge against my own self-destruction … huh, try to make sense out of that … i’m still working on it …