Is this, for lack of a better fitting description, beautiful?

He reaches out past my cracked exterior, these eyes that stare in mourning for a thing as yet unrealized and possibly never will be.  You see, biological cycles predict and predicate uf there is decay a film of fungus will grow, and I have been destroying myself so deeply I can barely recognize the mirror image or these sinking hands with the bones emerging — like stalactite definitions unearthed from a deep, forgotten cave.

I know everyone could see my walls. They reference themselves in generic reactions and mouth gestures. People can see more than they are willing to admit, even to themselves.

But people are reminding me of myself as I remind them of themselves, an awkward cycle of need. We are pulled by the pluralism of humanity and our revealing actions, a collective foreboding chaos that can no longer handle the tight strings of linear modernist thinking. Something is happening, we all know it. Some are just more willing by fate or genetics to sense the signs. From the age of ten, I could feel the pull, I had to write of the need, I felt obligated, I felt a calling. Is this evolution peeking behind all these processes of everyday life? The neurons working with the cells, the molecules vibrating in their organic shells, the hierarchy twisting its tail to reveal the spiraling, profoundly connected nature of everything? We are becoming … in every step, a rushing moment into the unknown, while still somehow paradoxically three steps simultaneously in past, present, and future … We have collected the bones and dreamed in the insanity of prophets. Where to go from here is a question we must let go and let it take us without pretense, without insecurity, without base assumptions or the safety of comfort and foundation, however hard that may be …

It will be, prior errors already accounted for (must move on), beautiful … It is beauty in chaos …

“It’s like you have fallen from a great ivory tower and now you see …” a father to a daughter in the wee hours of pain and realization.

patience is a virtue

but i was never known to be virtuous

i think i have betrayed everything i have ever known …

ps. geocities sucks … i am cancelling all accounts with those corporate fuckheads …

ppss. me at 16!

ppppssssssss…. insider info: me ex-boyfriend is in back but i blocked him out! cuz it just IS so much more beautiful on your own … you know, a cup full of freedom …

Individualism, Collectivism and “You”
In English, the singular and plural forms of second person pronoun
are the same. It means the word “you” can mean two things: you
the person or you the people. For example, when someone says
“you are smart.” to you, it can mean you as an individual are
smart or you as part of a group are smart. Because there is no
distinction between these two meanings, a person who grow up in
a dominantly English speaking environment is inevitably conditioned,
subconsciously, to think there is no distinction between an
individual and a group of people they are with.

What do you(individual) think?

((printed without permission)) by in the Linguists
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warning: not a linguist, just opinionated/thinking/poetically/philosophically interested 

so I see (of course) many faults to this argument … I think you are *generalizing* and *specializing* the entire supporting evidence and *ignoring* the various strands of why this may be occurring, not so much a defining cultural bias (this connotates a negative or positive conclusion *ending*, not a neutral realization *opening*), possibly an intrinsic development of the human to (testing a recently developed theory of mine) complete the loop and paradox of the human vs. humanity conflict … one must look at the context, cuz man, it is ALL ABOUT context … as in, when I use “you” I may be reflecting several personal/community psychologies/sociologies, not one of which would be a bias, but a of who *you* are and using this plural/singular complex as a tool for intricate awareness of how the self exists within the community and how they reacte off each other in the combined STRUCTURE of language/ communication … although, I have not delved enough into other languages to be able to relate this theory to other cultures, the English language itself is extremely versatile, complex, and revealing … and I think you are revealing/contradictng/answering yourself in the very question: What do you(individual) think? Because you are addressing a community of individuals, asking for a *pluralism* of answers, while still maintaining an emphasis on the *singular* person … pretty damned interesting, hmm? I am going to go ask a friend about this, thank you for the meme, man …

hey, i care again … things are going to start fucking changing around here …