hmmm …. i believe you are hidden from me …. you always did have a good poker face …orange peels curling off my eyes with a knife hauntingly familiar … i did talk to alexis. I think i know where she is coming from in a purely female sense. i know her …. i see why …. self-destruction seems to plague the best of us and you are no saint, now more than ever. Although i am a little disquieted about my turn towards ignorance, i am not going to hold it against you or myself It is not my conflict. You gave me only one choice …. the illusion of free will, huh? I’m not as young as i look … “I am not prey, not as much as i used to be”
this is not something to be understood in a purely female sense annika. i wish i could elaborate more, but i am so tired of this.
you came as a friend, and i came to see you. while others, who you held as a friend, berated you and danced around you with images of hate. She is ironically nice to you now? And it is now, you say that you realise, how much she is right? you were ignorant to only the hate and destruction she was spreading so fast. i dont know what it is she told you, perhaps you could tell me if you have any inch of care about me, and about who i am.
but instead, you say i put on a pokerface, which brings me to great sadness.
she always told me she never knew you, or you knowing who she was. she never was your friend.
i was your friend. but you have made a jump to a bridge i no longer want to cross.
i understand HER in a purely female sense, kevin, and yes, that does apply … no we are not “unionizing,” only filling in pieces … i am not saying how much she is right now, the realization is more of myself than her … i saw the torn seams of hate and destruction, kevin, things like that don’t just happen … they have reasons … anyway, check your email …