my best friend I have known for years, who for whatever chance of nature has a penis, and I, for whatever extra push the determined little spermie that was me had an X chromosome, can no longer speak to each other, EVER, because his girlfriend is threatened of me, because she is a nasty, horrible person … and he is in love with her … i am helpless and understanding as always … i cannot hate him for some reason, our friendship was always so honest and clear, i cannot be mad at him because i understand him and care for him. when i care for someone that much I am ultimately willing to let him go, so he can do what he feels he must … I cannot impose myself on someone I care so honestly for … i only hope he is happy now … i hope he can be happy in such a relationship … but there is an awful dread this is only the beginning for him … all i can do is hold my head in my hands, let the tears run, and watch it all wash away from me … she can’t take my memory of him, goddamnit …