my sorta-kinda boyfriend is 21 today … he looks so different now. we’ve been buds for 3-4 years, and i am only beginning to recognize him … or maybe just myself …

3 Americans have now been beheaded in iraq. the group of “terrorists” insist they will stop the killing if the US pulls out. bush’s response is we won’t be bullied by barbarism. he insists our military is strong and why would we listen to a couple of thugs? all they do is behead people and threaten to do what they do best: terrorize. which scares the living hell out of me. what exactly will it take for him to pull out? another 9/11? world war 3? UN coalition against us?

this week the president gave a grocery list of “freedom and democracy” slogans at the UN general assembly to a crowd of disturbed faces. the scary part was our president; he shows no remorse. none. his face is utterly void and his voice sounds like a recording of a recording of a recording …

i registered to vote for the first time in my little life yesterday. i receive my voter card by mail in one week.

i painted last night for the first time in a month and made a resolve to continue doing it this time … no excuses

laura bush is in my city as i type this, giving a speech. outside the building, across the double lane street, a small but steadfast protest group stares defiantly and proud into their crowd of passing vehicles. they hold a large cloth sign that reads: “laura bush, please tell your husband to stop killing people in iraq.” i passed by in my car, smiled at them while a truck driver yelled, “traitor.”

i’m going out there soon with my weapon of choice: a manual 35mm camera with a 70mm zoom lens and an open ear …

my ex-bf of years ago (boring high school history) called me yesterday after months of blowing me off and said: “hey it’s joe. unless you’re too good for me, call me back. all right. bye.” i would have to agree with him. i’m not returning his call because i am definitely too good for that and have been ever since i dumped his stupid ass …

all i’ve been listening to for the past week is WRECKINGBOY … yeah!

i laughed today thinking of my life and the people within it … no, it’s not facetiousness … it’s happiness in some strange way …