so, I have rethought many things and am now out of fucking wausau … enough should be gleaned from that very statement … i needed a refresh i suppose, and this journal to be be less accessible … i realized how selective and half-hazard my journal’s entries are, and how much perception can be tilted because of this, but it can have beautiful possibilities as well … i can learn here … this should be a warning for others as well as myself … what you see is not all there is, just what is spilled onto some outpost, what is revealed, what is not … ha! the confused, chaotic spillage of expression and interpretation … anyway, on with the refresh air …