how does one insist on not talking about death at an international funeral?
whenever i talk to adam these days it always ends in “capitalism sucks” ranting, as if this is the ending variable to everything.
when this is said there is nothing left to say it seems.
but THERE IS SO MUCH left to say that trembles and withers in this mass presence of decay, and i see it like he does, even lightest emily agrees, in everything from my shoes to my sidewalk to my fingernail white spots (a sign of malnutrition)
that is why i fucking HATE it so much, because there is more to life than this “practical, business,” fucking people over, stab them in the face with your boot to get to the top >> which is NO WHERE >>
i think i know why it was so significant for john lennon to get assassinated, for robert mapplethorpe and andres serrano to get publicly crucified … why it is so important to give lots of publicity to conspiracy theories, so we can all second-guess each other until we’re blue in the face …
yet i am silent and half-amused, as if i had nothing more to say in the presence of such a stranger who continues to spit on me every time we cross paths … a daily occurence now
that is why i don’t believe in the social inactivity, the “liberal” idea of not impressing opinions on others, stop fucking spitting on me then and i’ll quit filling your streets with cries of disgust and tired manifestos bank-monumentous and just as abstractly worthless.
i think we all must talk about whatever it is our heart cries to us, when we are listening. and that needs no justification.
gag me with an oil rag already
and i would agree, i do not know if i was so clear on the context surrounding this …
this is a cynical counter response/kind-of-allegory to the idea that public protesting is a rude push of liberal ideas onto the public … and my assumption, i suppose, that the state of this capitalist nation is very much impeding on our everyday lives to the point where public protest is a must, not to push our ideas on others, but for our supposedly “liberal” ideas to still be allowed to exist (like pro-choice, anti-war, and human rights), to have any sort of public forum because the one in government and media is not happening … much as art is a needed social response in all its forms, provides an avenue for change and creativity… it MUST just exist to stir things up a bit, show the public the multi-faceted world they DO live in and ARE a part of …we (meaning those not satisfied with the current government) are humans too, not liberal devils, acting on mere passionate whims …
although listening, i am afraid, is woefully disregarded at protests, much to my sorrow … the last protest(october 25, washington dc, oh, yeah) i went to, there remained two distinct groups yelling at each other the entire time … quite sad, quite sad, it seemed so utterly useless and for mere aggressive public show … it was enough to make me doubt the effectiveness of them for awhile …
i still believe they need to exist though … especially in today’s climate … not to get all political on you, just thought i’d clarify …
Re: gag me with an oil rag already
well, i think i understood okay. and that i would still offer my simple response as the truest means of communicating how i feel on a personal level. but if you want a more social, or perhaps just my political take on protest — or at least on one day of my life back in february of 2003 — you might read this: http://www.livejournal.com/users/ninefingeredboy/2003/02/15/
i dug it up from my old journal of over 1400 entries and reposted it in my current journal; backdated it to the correct day and time. i keep meaning to transfer more of that journal over.
Re: gag me with an oil rag already
thank youfor the link … i’ll take a peek in that webwork of yours … it always proves to be a worthwhile trip …
3rd person, fucking yeah
lightest emily thinks that annikas brain should be inside emilys vagina
why does that sound so sexy
anytime, anyplace, babe …in the words of alanis, “and all i need now is intellectual intercourse, a soul to dig the hole much deeper.”